(my scanner blurs everything. text: “I’ve been enlightened a few times but then I would wonder if eating pop tarts for dinner was a bad idea and forget the whole thing”)
This page and the previous page are based on Thoughts That Came Out of Nowhere. I have been having a lot of I guess ‘spiritual’ thoughts lately. As I was making these pages, I kept thinking to myself that I need to start meditating. I meditated with some regularity about six years ago (I was in a club of sorts) but haven’t done it since. I can do it at home but really wanted something that would motivate me and keep me consistent – like maybe an informal meditation class at the new age book store?
I’ve been meaning to go to said class for several months but always found an excuse. I decided that after having so many messages essentially handed to me on a platter, I should probably stop ignoring them. So I went. And you know what happened?
Nothing in particular.
I heard some things I needed to hear (we are learning about the 7 states of consciousness for this session), sat for 25 minutes, then left and called my mom to tell her that I finally know the location of the Charm City Cakes bakery because I passed it on the bus.
Other than that, the only thing that happened was that I started. I realized – again, because I forget and re-learn this repeatedly – that each moment is preceded by a chain of other moments. It’s how you spend each moment that builds your future and it’s only looking back that you realize how the decisions you’ve made have shaped you and the moment in which you currently find yourself. So, although it would have been nice to have some startling revelation during meditation, all I can say is that I have started down a path.
It’s also interesting (and exciting) that I am getting messages (it sounds so new agey to say that, but you know what I mean) through my journal pages – and most important, acting on them. I could have said to myself, “oh, spiritual pages, that’s neat” and spent my Wednesday evening watching ANTM. But I figure that the fact that I want to make these is at the very least reflecting a desire within myself (if you don’t accept the messages theory) and I should address it. So I did. And hopefully a few weeks or months from now I can look back and see the change.
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This is such a beautiful page. And it describes meditation very accurately.
I’ve been going to meditation sessions (my husband calls it “Buddha classes”) every Wednesday for over a year now. Wednesdays are the good nights for meditation, it seems.